Why I do what I do
I am often asked 'What do you get out of this?'. And as I am writing this, I find I am battling to find the words that could accurately describe what I receive from a session, whether that be coaching or massage.
I have shared this quote before but it seems apt to add it here - It is easy to take off your clothes and have sex. People do it all the time. But opening your soul to someone, letting them into your spirit, thoughts, fears, future, hopes, dreams.. that is being naked (Rob Bell). While I do not have sex with anyone ever in a session, there is that nakedness, that vulnerability there - for both of us (or 3 of us in a couples session). That is what Tantra is for me - that total presence - being fully there in that moment.
This has never been a 'job' for me. Come to think of it, even when I was in the corporate world, it was never just a job either - I absolutely loved what I did. And I do now. A couple of times I have nearly walked away from this path but it's pull is too strong. How could I even? I get to share and experience journeys with some pretty amazing people. I am pretty good in setting my intentions so the people I draw to work with me are for the most part, ones I can connect to. There are some where that connection flows easier, goes deeper.
It would be impossible for me not to be touched by the sessions. I live my life with my heart open (there are times when that has been a little hard) and I go into a session with that openness. And why I do what I do and what I get out of a session is twofold.
Firstly it is simply the amazing power that these sessions hold. And none of it really is anything I am doing - I am simply holding the space for you to surrender to your body and your energy. And when you do that, the whole universe changes. All the fears you were holding onto, melt away. Only love remains. Be that from simply chatting to exploring Tantric techniques or immersing in gentle touch, the result means coming back into your own body experiencing it in a whole new way. And that ripples out in the most beautiful way to every aspect of your life. Even after all these years, I am still blown away at how something that in effect is so simple, can have such profound changes in lives. From medical issues, intimacy and relationship concerns or deep seated fears that affect us to our core. How could I ever walk away when I see so much joy?
On the other side is the sheer beauty of a session. The intimacy between 2 people. You do not need to be in a relationship with someone to be intimate. You just need to be present. To be there with them. Open. In harmony. Each moment a meditation, a prayer, a gift that I treasure. And that is really all I can say. So please, don't think that I am getting nothing in return - you are giving me so much.